(You know the more I love you, the more he (PSP) will persevere to use you against me!)
You know I walked through all the forests
of the universe; wondering if all its trees
were standing in salutation. I could be
perplexed, but I didn’t ask who was
getting all the oblation, adoration
and ovation. I could manage somehow
the Golgotha that persisted with me
It was a very long time; epochs on epochs!
Yet, I can traverse those distances
in moments. I know I gave everyone their
lifelines; even though I desisted from walking
on water. I have always implored of Leo
not to be submerged. It was not my order
of prearrangement. Like the victimised and devastated
Virgo-Aries before it. I have preferred
all these deserts, going all brown with the sunshine,
but I really was cooked on the slow heat of treachery!
It was the love that I didn’t forego, even if
it was distanced from me. I wouldn’t ever
surrender to the conspiracy that wanted me
to believe I was widowed. I know the good book
doesn’t even suggest it is good. And the love and light
of Paul, that was all your haloed fantasy,
was, in fact, the hijacking of truths and perpetuating of lies!
I have every instagram of the things I cherished
inscribed in my soul; and all those truths.
And my suffering was not to proclaim only myself
in the eventualities, it was for the redemption of all
those who deserved it. Even silence
can become my testimony, and my missive, to the criminality
against me, should I not relinquish my truth, love
and loyalties. You can imagine that
the caverns of time I visited and revisited
was a becoming of an unbecoming, rather than
what should have rightfully became.
But would I have persevered, if the caverns
that held the secret sacred icons of my soul,
where I hid myself in the darkening
were indeed filled with the luminosity of your love!
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