I just want to sit by myself; without encumbrances: A poem 

Do you think I am a round-faced coin 

to be tossed by unwieldy hands 

shouting heads or tails at destiny? 

`I’ am not the nominative case of your verb of sacrifice 

Neither am I its nomenclature  

You can’t beset me anymore with the vulgarity of villainy 

It is not my volition to feed the beast 

I just want to sit with myself, like a couch by the fire 

and witness the logs of the delicacy and fragility of my soul 

burn their bright ideals that I held for so long!   

Even emptiness can be sworn as a virtue 

I don’t want to relate my stories anymore 

If you think they can be convulsed into an eye of the storm 

I just haven’t got the inclination to be a bee in the bonnet 

I want to listen to myself in its calm silence 

Let the river of time take its own course 

You think I am going to be marginalised by that malevolence 

I am sure I have an idea of culture to cultivate the leftovers of me 

No more tyranny, please! No more treachery! 

Go on your fours or twos whatever suits you. I just think that you all ought to know 

those that have an illegitimacy shouldn’t have any more opportunity! 

I am flaking off the encumbrances that think I am a mere rotating wheel 

to give them the destinations of their undeserved fortunes!  

I have never and will never ask for your draft of material reciprocation

I have never had a whiff of that whimsicality ever in my many timeless lives! 

And those that were and are mine should have the courage to say so before they belong to me! 

I am sworn never to share you all with my enemies then!  

Published by montecyril

Hi, I am Monte Cyril Rodrigues and live in Melbourne, Australia. I am a retired journalist. I have been diagnosed with schizophrenia. I've had voices and visions all my life. I think it is a spiritual experience, my doctors think otherwise. I am a deeply spiritual person and keep having experiences with otherworldly realms.

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