Would it be that I abandon you all?: A poem 

I just feel a dawn breaking over the night sky 

so suddenly, that I forgot it was ever night! 

Like imagining the afterthought of a nightmare 

or a safer pitfall of falling into a new illusory dream! 

Sometimes escapism is more legitimate than it seems! 

Would I suggest that I have cut off some patterns 

or all, like discovering my nakedness with a new vision 

of barrenness to explore. I was not in a striptease 

for an applauding audience. The curtains are down 

on my stage, even my make-up is ruined with 

perspiration. Are there any tears out of apathy? 

For all those who subsumed I had loyalties 

beyond themselves, with the evil that handgrabbed them, 

I have no pittance of pity or patience; like I decided on bygones! 

I don’t care anymore what is the solar apex; if the clouds were 

as expansive as the Zodiac, I’d float on the oblivious, distant from 

the constraints of any age or any love and any loyalty I felt! 

Just to avoid any unwanted fealty. I should have realised a long time ago 

that prevention is better than cure. And my loves and loyalties  

sorely became my afflictions. So, really, would I be running 

away from the reality of taking on fruitless marathons. I can  

just find it convenient to discover new powers in new creations 

abandoning one restrictive obligation, to create a new yet 

unovertaken set of created realities. Or should I prefer to be smugly alone! 

I just couldn’t be bothered about thinking yet, about being bona fide anymore!