Sometimes, I’d like to be my own ad hominin!: A poem 

You know to love yourself and respect yourself, 

is like adamantine, a lustre beyond reckoning; 

harder than any crystal, should your evil want to destroy it? 

The char of you cannot even imagine carboniferating 

to the extent I have over the ages? Should you think 

you do not want to heed to my rhythm and embark 

on a relentless fusillade of me, to throw me out of 

gear, frustrate me, and bring me to my knees! I should  

be able to shut you up in your lab-tested origins, if I should please!  

Don’t try to stretch my patience! My true love can’t always 

be held at cross-purposes with me for the vindication of the evil 

against me! I will never be yours, you laboratory critters, even 

if your deceit should dare to sodomise me! I have long lived with  

patience and tolerance of your ignorant non-self-reflecting 

criminality, always believing that my restraint would get your  

submittance to your own introversion, leading to the debilitation  

of your notorious profane wickedness. But not only do you Lab-rats seek your own leverage 

all the time, refusing to atone for your deviance, but you want to drag  

down the entire world with your misbegotten powers! You have been  

thankless with my patience? Don’t think you can condemn my perjury  

(in all my honesty) with your unjust retribution, or snake your treachery up  

on me! I am not unawares, believe you me! You deserve no impunity; that your own  

conscience should tell you more vocally than me! You have been flagrantly  

villainous for eternity! At least go buy the expensive and priceless book  

of truth, and read up (it will cost you your soulless existence), rather than trying to bodygrab it from the righteous! 

Sometimes, I really want to be my own self, free of your wicked contraptions! I am an 

undying bigot and an eternal unforgiver in response to all your rapacity, 

even though I do my duty to the tee, and your evil capitalises on it! I am 

venturing into myself, bereft of even any of my sympathisers and friends, 

that you so beguilingly hijack and liquidate! I just want to tell you that nobody’s menu  

suits my gourmandise! I always prefer my own independent a la carte! 

You foragers of other people’s pastures, get fucked into your own metallurgised 

meadows of Nibiru!   

Published by montecyril

Hi, I am Monte Cyril Rodrigues and live in Melbourne, Australia. I am a retired journalist. I have been diagnosed with schizophrenia. I've had voices and visions all my life. I think it is a spiritual experience, my doctors think otherwise. I am a deeply spiritual person and keep having experiences with otherworldly realms.

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