I am sure you were rolling in your grave
when they callously linked you to a sort of Hedonism!
How this mangled rhetoric on your philosophy
took away your essence! I know what it takes to be precluded and
maligned by witnesses to your righteousness
that use the default of their ruthless power against you!
Have you chosen happiness above all, that it even
accommodates pleasure? I can say I didn’t ever rue the
unhappiness of my predicament? How can one sustain
`being happy’ when there is so much evil at work?
I just think that I have been somewhattish happy
in my stoicism and sense of humour! How would you,
yourself be happy when you discovered, posthumously,
that they gave you untoward credits. I just lived my life’s
immense pain, laughing away! How would that exactly deem
an alleged happiness? Or would I just be accused of
being pretentious, or worse, bravado? Yes, you also
propounded that fear takes away happiness.
I have always been sworn to courage! Not even fearing
when everyone ganged up to put the fear in me!
Should I say that everybody else’s fear repeatedly
defeated my purpose. I wish you would know how
the evil one occluded my every aspiration with the collusion
(out of fear) of everyone else involved in this theatre
of `les cages aux folles’. I just couldn’t be bothered
impressing anyone with my righteousness! You yourself
was born into a Greece where everybody was feeling
a decadence and chaos. But I should tell you that I have
been holding the world by its cuffs creating chaos
to avoid an evil order, breathing down its neck. You see that I must
roil my own perspiration because it has unabating treachery
at its heels! What should I kick in disgust but my own loves and lost toil?
Did you talk of little pleasures? I’ve had none! I only entertain
myself with my own so utterly painful and excessively tiring indefatigability!
Or should I seek the easy way out and just destroy the glass cage?
Would everyone reckon that World Wars and annihilation are better
than wallowing in untruths and injustices?
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