I live in a hardknuckled existence of only knowing myself,
a forward-backward guerilla, like a game of backgammon
where the pieces have a right to re-entry. I am no cloak-and-dagger
specialist, but I have an aura of intrigue, as much as I am subject to betrayal!
So, should I ask of Eros, or Gemini, or Cupid, even the gods that determine
familial love; what should I discern, and how do I discriminate,
when I thought I believed blood is thicker than water, and its constituents
flow from a fountain of antiquity, so old that it tastes both familiar
and alien? If God had a spell, a Godspell, that was taken away from him
by an imposterial witchcraft?! That if I should remember, right from that
traumatic September, every iota of the crimes committed against me,
And the devolution of love in the wake of its (love’s) abduction! My price was
an extortion from me at every juncture of eternity. I have been besieged
by a timeless thuggery, where the armies I loved and nurtured were made to
snuff my belief systems with their backhanders; because they feared the evil,
and rather stifle their courage and subserve the treachery! If I could only savour love
like an autumn tree that sees all its leaves fall to the ground and turn to dust. Is my time
only the season of defeat of the idea of love, and disbelief in its eternal promise?
I have never made mountains of molehills, I have a deeper understanding;
But is such understanding only prone to deceit? What is the futility of it all, if everything is
a joke, a hoax, a fallacy! I have never claimed to be debutante, but I also am never faux pas!
It is the historic felons who have claimed the right to call justice-seekers felons!
You all can question your faith if you respect truth, I can only accept my fate, even with all my courage and
defiance; if defeat should reduce me to embers, and I die a death; but am sworn never to be misplaced!
This countenance will never diminish even if all else loved, by me, atrophies in character?
Nobody can blame me for never forgiving, even for the love of all I love, that forgiveness is
not the decorum or order of duty, even if one is reduced to hors de combat! I know for
certain that judiciousness and astuteness are more righteous than duty to love! There is no
justification in condoning treachery, especially, the treachery that is so straitjacketing of
you, that leaves you with no options! You think I have no right to curse the perennial treachery for eternity?!
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