I won’t be a shadow of myself, despite all the wicked shadow play!!: A poem 

If my words could hang on a  

clotheshorse, then, what would 

my poetry be? Would it be an ode 

to the sterile laundromat or a  

lyric to dirty linen? I don’t even  

wash my hands regularly (too often); I think it is 

the guilty, who indulge in that pastime! 

I, sometimes, feel like a beast bestowed 

with belligerence. You know when too  

much injustice is done to you, you have 

reason to go insane with hatred. But unlikely to me. 

For, I am mostly calm and composed! 

Poetry can reflect your moods, even if you 

seek to hide behind the bland aphorisms. Even  

the silence of your words becomes an onomatopia, 

giving off sound. You know, you may 

not rasp in alliterations or repetitions, but an 

eagle-eyed reader may just as well capture 

your hidden disdain and ire. I am definitely 

not a cardboard cutout. There is astuteness  

in being brave as much as restraint. Your  

saintly monikers don’t fall like halos around the 

heads of the brave. The real martyrdom has  

gone in vain, but should it pick up the loose strands  

in another age? Murderers have walked out  

of courtrooms, untainted; victims have been  

imprisoned and punished! I can even tell you 

that even the good-intentioned mighty fear too much; 

The remainder of those in power are just  

making a hypocrisy out of professed goodness! 

All the more acquisition of power is a manifestation  

of fear! In any case, the psychopath cries often and  

the loudest; for, he wants to drown out his blame! 

Who is truly sorry for his crimes; only the one who 

is apprehended? I have been twice put unjustly in 

a madhouse(!), You think those that wanted my  

camraderie, didn’t feel like wanting to punish me 

for my rejecting them? I didn’t blame anyone! But how 

does the system seem motley when manipulated 

to their own advantage by those in power? I swear (!), 

I’ll never be reduced to a shadow of myself, despite 

all the wicked self-seeking shadow play of vested interests!!! 

Published by montecyril

Hi, I am Monte Cyril Rodrigues and live in Melbourne, Australia. I am a retired journalist. I have been diagnosed with schizophrenia. I've had voices and visions all my life. I think it is a spiritual experience, my doctors think otherwise. I am a deeply spiritual person and keep having experiences with otherworldly realms.

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