I just want to go, finally and sincerely!: A poem

 

Think of love, without the question mark? 

Do you think you can hold it, 

when it is a slipstream flowing through  

your fingers? It is not even like the morning dew 

that you can taste before it dissipates under the sun? 

You know, ambrosia was never meant for humanity! 

I just watch the days, pass into years, and years 

pass into a lifetime; and feel the unfairness of your promises! 

Sometimes, I feel I want to get away from this world, 

before I destroy it! So much for my belief in you? 

You think I am here to serve the villains, who want to  

make relics out of my bones, after they vilify them into an unsacredness! 

Must I always be suffering for other people’s crimes? 

Must I always be victimised  due to other people’s treachery? 

Every civilisation of mine was held to ransom, and subsequently, destroyed! 

Is this all the embodiment my honest travails deserve? 

I took the hard line for you! 

And only got your hard-hearted dispensations. 

I didn’t look for love in the deep sea of fantasy! 

I look up to the stars and finally want to go! 

I cannot have any more faith, when I know my faith was kept in abeyance  

for an eternity! There is no fulfilment in waiting for so long!

Published by montecyril

Hi, I am Monte Cyril Rodrigues and live in Melbourne, Australia. I am a retired journalist. I have been diagnosed with schizophrenia. I've had voices and visions all my life. I think it is a spiritual experience, my doctors think otherwise. I am a deeply spiritual person and keep having experiences with otherworldly realms.

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