(It is better to be exorcised in this life than to fall to evil for eternity. That I want to tell my siblings!)
I feel like I am falling into a portentous swamp
The native country of my soul is flaying in helplessness
Because I am compromising myself under duress
that my siblings are going to suffer terribly if I am adamant
But I want to tell my siblings they are running the risk
of a deeper chasm, a probable abyss in eternity
Must we not exorcise ourselves through suffering
in this life, to attain a salvation from here on.
I have forebodings and despise for the ones who
lead me to such impromptu defeat of my convictions.
Should I not have more loyalty to myself than others?
What kind of sacrifice is the sacrifice of constant
self-defeat and self-destruction? At what altars do I
lay myself time and again. A hara-kiri after every immense toil!
Australian politicians have proved to be much too sinisterly devious.
And I’ve been made a subjective victim between one evil and the other!
Is it that my eternity of sacrifice deserves only such ignominy.
And must I be victimised because other people and leaders have no balls!!!
The evil Prakash Saint Paul gets away with his murders each time round!
And I am always subjugated to see my enemies rule the roost!
How much sacrifice can I undertake! How much ignominy must I put up with
Am I here only to serve selfish causes of selfish people.
I never even got a piece of pittance for all my sacrifice (not that I asked!)
But must my truth be always defeated because of the sins of others?
I am just going through a lot of undeserved chaos in my soul
And you all must know that my immense sacrifice should not be taken for granted
And treated casually, because it is convenient for you all.
I have suffered terribly; and I can make you all do too! Don’t take me for granted.
I am feeling very irate in all my restraint! Don’t push me by making me consort with one evil or the other!
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