See who I am, who I am? Am I just their sacrificial lamb?: A poem

I wouldn’t play croquet with the queen

If she used large birds to hit the ball,

I have a few goals to find, but I’ve been…

Waiting…for a stork, standing tall

I have seen so many horizons sink

like hasty evenings, in an eye-blink

And is it dying, to embers, my fire

even though I’ve not shouted from the rooftops: I am tired?

It’s all the patience and sublimity that I’ve hired

It’s all the humility and humour that I’ve sired

I think I’ve told Mum: I never would ever consider losing you

And turn to Dad and say: And you too!

The pictures I have in mind are graphic art

And they have come out right from the start

from every auricle and ventricle of my heart

Such love cannot be torn apart!

Who would want Paradise if I had to choose?

Who would want heaven if I had to lose,

anyone I love, anyone I cherish?

Let all those insecurities perish

They (the perpetrators) want me to sit at their table

Hold the demons in their stable

You know they murdered, stole, hijacked and burgled

And, in my virtuous innocence, it was me that was punished and struggled!

But I feel the salt on my fingers

tasting what is that I see as destiny-bringers

I am burning quiet, in my own lamp light

The Siege Perilous is darkened, but I am bright

It is not just my imagination taking flight

On my right, I whisper to my True Love if freedom is in sight?

If the magnum opus is an auto bus

between the stars, like the Universe’s gust?

See who I am! See who I am?

Do you think I’m only their (the perpetrators’) sacrificial lamb?

Published by montecyril

Hi, I am Monte Cyril Rodrigues and live in Melbourne, Australia. I am a retired journalist. I have been diagnosed with schizophrenia. I've had voices and visions all my life. I think it is a spiritual experience, my doctors think otherwise. I am a deeply spiritual person and keep having experiences with otherworldly realms.

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