Mother, if you had a choice, what name
would you give me at birth? What would it be?
While you told me how I got my name: Monte –
from Mary of the Mount; you never told me
who decided on it – you or Dad or the priest
that christened me. I was born on the 8th of
September; presumed to be Mary’s birthday!!
But I thought my name was your legacy. You were
Maria, and a mountain in sincere duty to love!
Mother, the story goes of how I always pined for my
Sandra. You all thought it was my dead twin sister that I
sought. It was actually Sa and ra; my Sarah from nearly
2000 years ago! The Sarah who was the soul of James the Just!
I know a secret about my twin sister, who I lost at birth, Mother,
which I won’t share with you all! But she was not my Sa and ra (Sarah)
Can you tell, I remember much of the history of souls
that are dear to me, as I remember my own? I have made sacrifices
that weren’t easy at all, Mother, for eternity. I just want to say, Mother,
like you, I have an untiring spirit. But there comes a time, when you
must have your own reckonings to adhere to. I can’t say much
about the history of criminals and their legacy of avoiding retribution for
their crimes by committing more crimes. I am sure I don’t even want to
ponder over them anymore, leave alone be perturbed by them.
But there are few things that I want manifest, that may not happen
because of the customary treachery against me! But I shall not cry
with grief! Let the story of my immense sacrifice be left to be told or not told
to posterity; I really wouldn’t worry about it, Mother! Mother, the tales of
your sacrifices are stored in the hearts of those who love you! But what
are my sacrifices, Mother (?!); gone unnarrated for aeons and aeons as long as
eternity! Are they enumerated in the memories of the Universe, should I ask?
Should that be my only gratification?!
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